Frustration and the man on the moon

So I went to see my Rheumatologist yesterday 2 months before my scheduled checkup as I have been in a lot of pain. He checked things out and we went through different options. I asked him if what I was going through was normal. He said FM is anything but normal. It's not a normal disease with normal problems. Not what I wanted to hear. He checked me out and said "You really are wired huh?" DUH!! Why do you think I am here?

He is sending me for a bunch of lab work to make sure everything is fine that way and gave me a choice of 2 new drugs. One I would have to go off of the one I am on now and I would have to wean myself off of it first. We tried that before with drastic negative results. So what we are going to do is go on the one medication for a few weeks, see if it works, and if it does then start weaning myself off the other one. Hopefully that will help and I won't go in such withdrawals.

I said you know it really ticks me off that man can have resources to fly to the moon and yet can't develop a drug or find a cure for something here on earth. I told him I have done everything I know to do to ease this, I lost 150 pounds, I don't eat white stuff when I can help it, I eat fruits, grains lots of veggies, I walk everyday, I work out every day and still I am not better. My sleep in interrupted and I spend my nights going from the bed to the couch to the recliner then back again.

UGH!!!! He did give me a name of a herbal product that I can try for the memory loss so will go and check it out. It is soooooo frustrating! I still believe very strongly that all this comes from the spraying of our farms with DDT when I was growing up! They stopped using the chemical after a few years but by then it was too late. It was in our food, in our water, in our animals and fish. But how do you prove it??

Oh well back to the drawing board I guess. I am going to continue working on my frustration levels though even though the 21 days are gone. Obviously I still have issues to work on. I am putting on a family history fair on March 10th and I have been on someone's case to get the building booked for a month now. A few minutes ago I got a phone call saying oh the building is booked and the earliest date is April 28th!!!! What is the point of delegating if people don't do what they are asked when they are supposed to!!! The building was free when I checked for dates a month ago!